What's her story?
After my birth in Calcutta, India, I have had the privilege to live in Trinidad, Germany, Luxembourg, United Kingdom, United States and now Dubai. Having done my GCSEs and IB in London, I went to New York University to do my Bachelo'r's in Media, Culture and Communication, graduating in Class of 2016. I then went on to complete my Master's in Media and Communications at the London School of Economics in London (Class of 2018). I now live in Dubai and working on a few tech start up ideas, which I hope to launch in 2019.
I have a keen interest in international relations, reading on politics and current affairs. In my free time, I love to catch up on TV shows, watch movies and listen to audiobooks. My dream is to make a difference in the world for both women and children.
"All my life I have lived feeling "I’m not good enough" (almost 24 years).
It affected my relationships with others and of course myself. Just when life would get too good to be true, I would shut myself. Despite having NYU and LSE degrees under my belt, I still felt like I wasn't good enough. Upon my mother's insistence to overcome this feeling, I was urged to acknowledge my pattern.
It wasn’t until 6th June 2018 (yes, I remember the date vividly) when a friend of mine confided in me with some of his personal challenges. After hearing him, I realised my respect and compassion for him and his honesty grew. That made me aware of "what I was doing wrong all my life".
I was always afraid to share my truth, my deepest truth that I had fearfully hidden. This realisation was my turning point.
I decided to share my truth with him. To my surprise just by sharing my story, I opened a whole new dimension to my life.
By giving a part of my guarded secret, I received so much insight.
Before I was born, my parents had lost two baby girls in 1992 and 1994. It was then that they chose to adopt...and they received me as their gift! Voila! That’s right, I’m adopted! It is no more a guarded secret. Just saying those words make me feel so much lighter. Previously, I've always been petrified to share my secret in the fear of judgement and rejection. But now I know there is nothing to fear.
All this time I was self-sabotaging my opportunities in life because somewhere deep down I felt rejected by my biological parents. To avoid any further rejections I would shy away from any deeper relationships until I collapsed with the weight of self-rejection.
I was wrong. I am so glad that I was so wrong in believing that I was not good enough. In fact, I am one of the very few lucky people who became aware of this pattern and could break free from it at such an early stage in life. And now I want to help others who are in my position to take their Udaan."
(London, United Kingdom)
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